our love story.. (kahit wala naman talaga.. hehe..)

this is my part..

sitting at the corner.. you passed me by.. i noticed you.. but you didn't even give me a glance.. from that time.. i considered you as a silent cute guy.. NOTHING MORE.. but by fate.. we always stopped at the same place at the same time.. having only you and me.. and since you were not yet my crush.. it was just NOTHING.. i didn't talk to you.. didn't make any effort to do so..

then we had the chance to talk for a while.. as if we knew each other even before.. and i never thought.. that moment would mean something.. cause it was just NOTHING.. so i just talked to you casually.. i was happy that i had a new friend..

eventually.. i started to notice you MORE.. i looked at you secretly everytime you walk through the place where i was.. i shudder whenever you come near me.. i smile everytime i see you.. and without your knowledge.. i prayed for you..

my feelings got STRONGER as time went by.. tried to stop because i knew that it would go no where.. but nothing happened.. i was just drowned being frustrated..

fortunately.. we knew each other personally with the help of a friend.. (cause that person knows that i like you).. then i was happier.. we got to say hi to each other everytime we cross our ways.. but not always.. most of the time we ignore each other.. i was just shy.. (not quite.. hehe..)

through text messaging we became close.. we even had our pet name.. we shared different stories.. we said sweet words.. but in person.. we only had 'hi' and 'hellos..' (SAD..)

but the time came that i was not able to see you anymore.. we just had our communication through text and/or online.. we had our plans to see each other but never happened.. so i thought you are just fooling me around.. playing my emotion.. so i decided.. i stopped texting you for some time.. lessen my reply to your messages..

unfortunately.. there was a time i broadcast that i have my new partner though I REALLY DIDN'T HAVE.. (just for some reason i already told you)..  without considering you.. since i thought that you were just playing.. and i never thought you would be hurt.. nor affected..

but unexpectedly.. you react.. you responded.. and i felt that you were hurt.. (i think so).. i explained it all.. but i don't know if you believed.. or if you even care.. so i made efforts to be close with you again.. but i never won you back that much.. maybe because you already thought that i was just fooling you.. but I DID NOT..

then someone came that shifted my feelings from you.. i forgot about you for some time.. focused myself with that person.. suddenly it just ended..

i cried.. became bitter.. but i moved on..

after all the things that happened.. i realized that it is still you that i am longing for.. it is still your eyes i want to look at me.. it is still you.. i knew from the start that i can never have you.. and i'll be hurting myself more if i try to win your heart.. but I AM STILL INTO YOU..

we continued our communication.. we ask each other if we can go out.. watch a movie.. go to hiking.. but nothing from it comes alive.. (maybe because of our schedules.. busy mode..)

so again.. i tried to stop.. i thought i was fine..

then.. i knew that you fell in love with someone else.. i thought i am fine.. not that hurt.. not so much affected.. i said im okey.. i said to myself that i can stop thinking about you easily..

BUT I WAS WRONG.. out of no where you texted me.. and asked me to meet you and your friends.. i don't know what got into your mind.. but then we met.. FOR THE FIRST TIME.. we went out.. then you told me that your friends canceled our meeting with them because of some reason..

so.. it was just YOU.. and ME.. so we walked.. secretly.. i wished that you would guide me.. (sort of being liberated.. hehe..).. but you didn't.. we went somewhere.. we were not able to talk that much.. but i was happy.. i enjoyed it.. (hope you too..) i shudder having our small talk.. seeing those eyes looked at my eyes as i speak..

for some time i wished that we go out together.. then it just happened.. when the time you already have someone else.. but i was happy though..

we had our moment together.. for few hours i was with you.. and i was happy.. you even asked me to join your camping next month..  how i wish i have available time.. but i am sure that i don't..

and so.. it has to end.. we went home.. and.. and.. you guided me as we crossed the street.. i smiled secretly.. then we had better conversation while walking than what we had in the place that we got in..

as the conversation continued.. you told me one story that you acted to hang your arms over my shoulder.. i was not aware that you would do that.. and honestly.. i never thought that you would do that.. unknowingly.. some kind of a current just hit me.. but that's just it..

we reached the bus stop.. and you guided me to ride.. i planned to kiss you goodbye.. but that i can't do.. (hehe..)

then.. that's it.. you had my heart when we part ways.. you still have it now.. and i will just let you hold it.. then.. i don't know.. maybe for some time i'll wait for you.. but please.. don't keep me waiting.. you can actually slap me on my face by saying that i am waiting for nothing.. then i would thank you for that..

for now, i can do nothing but to reminisce the moment that we shared.. For it was the only time i am with you.. And i know.. That's the only thing i can have with you..

so love your eyes when they looked at me.. I shivered when you touched me..

do you know who you are??? you should know it.. because this is our story.. and this is my part.. would you let me know yours??? i guess not.. For your heart is owned by someone else..




-- hahaha.. was created almost a year ago.. so attracted with this guy at that time..:)